Remembering my Father Claude Calvin
"I wouldn't be me without you"
Rest Peacefully. I miss you. Claude Calvin. More than half of me passed away Thursday afternoon. You are my world, my kryptonite. My hero. I wouldn't be me without you. Dad I will always miss you. Thank you for everything that you did and didn't do.
You never got the chance to meet my children. You never got the chance to walk me down the aisle. You didn't get the chance to live another 20 days to see me turn 25. Everyone is telling me "sorry for you loss" but hearing those words doesn't sound right to me because I don't feel like I lost anything because I still feel your presence. It's hard to accept the privilege taken away from me not being able talk to you, hold your hand, laugh or visit you. But I'm glad your no longer in pain.
I'm sorry that there wasn't anymore treatment for your illness and I'm sorry that you had to endure all that pain for all those years. It was breaking my heart to watch you deteriorate before my eyes. I felt powerless I couldn't stop your pain. Your the strongest man I know because you pushed as much as you could and I believe you tried as much as you could until you couldn't do no more. You had your ways but I always loved you for being you and you are loved.
Your legacy will live through me, Theo, Joel, Rachel and Jeremiah. In fact we are your legacy and we miss you. I can't see myself as a "fatherless" child because my dad is still here with me in spirit and I'm still carrying his name and he always made me feel destined for greatness. Thank you, Dad I love you to the moon, universe and back. Your the original C.C. and spiritual I have extra back up which makes me feel unstoppable. 🥀🌍
I miss you and I see you again. April 22, 1952 - January 09, 2020.